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exams OVER. storage stuff PACKED. suitcase MOSTLY PACKED hahaha. i hate travelling, i really do. because i hate the fact that my life is on the move and not with all my stuff perfectly arranged and placed in their OCD glory. one of the few things i hate about living here (away from SG). but one of the very few.

been using all the livingsocial deals i bought. so we ate at Rugby. at johnny rockets (hehehe). and at puro cafe. so delicious. 
and justin still wants to go get soul food tonight. i think my suitcases won't be the only overweight things soon. sjgwgweg.

24 hours till i leave campus. 52 hours till i'm in singapore. not excited about the heat. but we'll deal with that shortly. 
thank you God for a great end to the semester. by the time i get home i can check my grades too i think. we'll see whether that changes how i feel haha.

No love, cry when only babies die.
And when I go that casket better cost a hundred thou.
I pray to God I look my killer in his eyes.
Snatch his soul up out his shirt, let's take him for that ride.
O.G. is one who standin' on his own feet.
A boss is one who guarantee we gone eat.

am physically sick of (from?) all the work. the next 6 weeks are going to be killer. likely pretty miserable too sigh. 

this morning's BPL matches were too exciting. non-stop bbming jin and texting cao. i guess sunderland properly beating man city would have been a bigger blessing but i was too pleased with QPR beating arsenal ahahahahahahahahahha UP YOURS. 

my glorious gold flats arrived yesterday and my entire bloody carpet, and therefore room, is covered in glitter. i still love it. 

this thursday i have to go to maryland to see that damn doctor. that's always fun.. knnbccb. 
but by friday evening cao will be here!! and SATURDAY NIGHT WE WILL GO SEE SNOW PATROL TOGETHER. thank you moly for this amazing present. they are literally one of my absolute fave bands so this is a dream come true. and some more with my cao xiang!! i think i will cry the whole concert...

and tomorrow i am meeting ach for lunch (we already decided on nando's hehehehehehe)
and tonight party with the kids + zuoyi in town. 
i realize the importance of verbalizing blessings. cos after i say all these things i already feel less shitty. 

i can't wait to see my shelleypie. i watched videos of soldiers coming home to their dogs and bawled AGAIN. this is like the 3rd time this semester.oops =]

just over halfway through. this has been a weird semester.
i had a good birthday weekend, and my spring break was amazing. i guess two really good things (especially the latter) should last me a longer time. 
this semester just hasn't been what i'm used to, by any means. 
i'm really ready for it to be over. and phasing more people out of my life, to be honest. 

ready to fast-forward to the next stage i think. or just quit, i don't know. 

i always have a million things i want to say and have to remember, and i always think to myself "i wish i could write this down somewhere and other people could laugh/comment on/think about this. 

...eventually i remember that i own a blog but i have never have time to write when i want to. this time last week i was on a bus to NYC for an amazing weekend. i really had so much fun. being happy definitely has some anesthetic properties. 

udon with ach, coffee+shopping+the high line with cao, friday night in with amms, dress fitting (<33333), sprinkles, totto ramen, periyali dinner + cake @ ach & maddie's, man utd game with everyone at nevada's. no coincidence that i had that much fun only because i was with my siblings. and justin and maddie. and cao. hahaha. 

stressful week with a paper and exam due on the same day. yesterday's Doyle experience was really unlike anything i've experienced here so far. today's friday so I HAVE NO SCHOOLLLLLL. but being a nerd and getting some extra credit in at noon. pharmacy. dinner out tonight =]. the weekend to do work hahaha but i'm okay with that i guess. 

earlier this week i was pukey and sick and then i became tired and grumpy and in pain. but honestly - this has been a great week. 

in 3 weeks i'll be leaving for costa rica. another first for me. so excited!!!! more NY in april, BUT THIS TIME WITH THE PARENTS TOO! 

i've not been the happiest this semester, but i thought it'd be useful to write out all the blessings i am already guaranteed to have. nothing to complain about, really. reks_bluefunk needs to get out of this blue funk. 

( the motto )

when my sleep is messed up i get super moodswingy and it pisses me off even more. 
took a nice walk today and even kinda went shopping(-ish)... basically thinking of all the things i can buy if i feel i deserve it in 2-3 weeks or so. covetttttttttttttttttttttttttt. 

VS was having a sale and i was really AMAZED.  i know guys don't understand about push-ups and stuff but OH DAMN. today i saw the CRAZIEST PADDING EVER. i don't know how to explain it!!!! i've never seen bras like this in my life! there was an airbag in there! a a futon in there! california king bed! NO REALLY I CAN'T GET THIS POINT ACROSS. i have neverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr seen/felt something like this. 
the moment i wanted to die most was when this really, really, really, white skinny girl was walking around and saying FREAKING loudly "ya i mean i guess i'm like a 36C?" and i immediately died cos it clearly wasn't true. 
well...she was a 36C. after she put the family-size sofa bra on she was. 
sorry i'm not sure why i reacted so extremely but there was just this one particular one that i almost wanted to buy just so i could let everyone see what i have seen and felt what i have felt (ew that sounds off...)

so glad today's a holiday. if not, i'd be in class in like 4 hours. =( i suddenly feel like i've lost my spark. in a way not even chocolate ice-cream can cure (believe me, i've tried!). 

I HATE GROUP WORK. I DON'T WANT TO DO ANY GROUP WORK. AND I DON'T WANT TO GIVE PRESENTATIONS COS I WILL GO UP THERE AND BE SMILEY AND CONVINCING AND CHEERY AND SHIT AND ALL I WANNA DO IS SHOW UP FOR CLASS, GO HOME AND DO WORK, AND TURN IT IN THE NEXT TIME I SHOW UP. i don't wanna actually have to interact pleeeze. 

"come hang out! we're watching a movie!"
"come hang out we're drinking and then going out!"
"come hang out we're drinking!"

NO. i am busy. there are movies to watch and hours to sleep. go away. i only emerge to take walks and go to class. limme'lone. 

k! it's been a good semester, ready to go home now!

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVERRRRRR. 
by the time i arrive in singapore some of the results might actually be out =X anyway whatevs. they're done!

today's just been doing various chores the whole way. laundry, change sheets. sell back textbooks. vacuum. re-activate SG phone line. printing confirmations for supershuttle +flights. 

man utd won today, and celtics are winning so far in the 4th q. so there's that to be thrilled with. 

procrastination over one thing makes me SUPER productive over other things. in spite of the million things i HAVE accomplished today, i have not started packing at all. nay, i haven't even pulled out my suitcase yet. (like how i said "nay" there? me too)
my goal is to, for the first time, not have overweight luggage. i think i've been pushing my karma wayyyyyyy too much. smiling and pleading and sad-facing my way through the past 2.5 years has worked but seriously i shouldn't keep doing this. and especially since i'm only gonna be back for < 3 weeks. my strategy is to bring fewer pairs of shoes home. I LOVE SHOES, did you know that? i really do. 

oh anyway, i've not found it necessary to jump ship to tumblr (since i hardly blog anyway) but i do read some of my friends' tumblrs. and people always talk about how much time they waste jumping from tumblr to tumblr, and i can understand that. anyway, for the first and ONLY tumblr i've bookmarked (cos i remember my friends' ones/just link off twitter):
http://thingsorganizedneatly.tumblr.com/
this is a PARADISEEEEEEEEE. so gorgeous and sooooo neat. love it. 

meow i'll miss my room while i'm gone. hahaha, since this room is far more my home than anything else currently. this Christmas is gonna feel so very different, sigh. 

can't wait to see my parents and brother and gparents and doggieeeeeeeeeeeee. and friends. i guess... 
will missssssssssss my sister. and i keep ordering hassan to sell his soul in order to fly home with me. so far, i'm unsuccessful. 

anyway... this semester had a lottttt of ups-and-downs. but c'est la vie. l'etat c'est moi. apres moi le deluge. hoc est corpus meum. malleus malificarum. sapere aude! 
...okay the last five were from studying for history but nevermind!!!! 

next semester's classes: Psychology & Literature (higher seminar whooo), Social Psychology, Latino Sociology, Population Dynamics (sounds like a bore but i'm trying to show diversity in the subjects i choose for soc), Philosophy & the Self. 

an overall irritating, tiring, and messed-up day...

BUT I'M DONE WITH WRITING ALL MY PAPERS, BITCHES. 
overall for finals:
1 15-pager,
1 13-pager, 
1 10-pager,
1 5-pager. 

and i turned in all of them this week. 
just 3 exams left to go. thank you God! 

earth has no sorrow that Heaven cannot heal. 

life may be an endless cycle of struggle to deal with, but we can deal with it with His help. only with His help. 

today's been a bizarre day. 
you know those random people you encounter like the someone from your freshman year theology or that kinda hung out in your sophomore year extended circle of friends, and you guys don't talk regularly but you definitely smile and acknowledge each other when you pass?
i feel like i tend to smile at them most warmly of all since i have nothing against them and potentially am friendly with them, and since we don't interact in any other way, i smile extra warmly when we pass each other. 
maybe cos it's rainy and people are are in a shitty mood cos they got drenched or whatever...but 2 of those kinds of people gave me a weird fake smile or this one weird girl (who generally has no friends and so i've made it a point to be friendly to her even semesters on) just avoided my gaze. 

MAN THAT SHIT PISSED ME OFF. obviously i recognize people aren't as nice as i am (when i want to be), but since we have nothing against each other, you should abide by the common courtesy and be somewhat friendly!! i changed my mind... SO WHAT IF IT'S RAINING. it's raining on me too right, you little shit. 

even when i'm feeling bitter and angsty i still make an effort to not blatantly spread it to the people around me. even if that means i have to cordon myself off and keep the rage in a bounded zone, I DO IT. so screw you assholes who don't make the same effort.

after the encounter with the friendless girl i literally stopped in my tracks and said out loud, "the fuck!?!?" 

when i'm in a good mood i end up showering the people i care about with an over-abundance of affection. okay but if you piss me off and get on my bad side, i will pray for the Old Testament-style God of vengeance to destroy you. 

just finished some intense vacuuming... hahahahahaha. i love my little haven. i come back to my pretty little room with my posters and pictures and Christian stuff all over, and soft toys and pandas and orderliness....and now i shall put together an angry ipod playlist. 

last exam today....before the finals start. neuroscience too, my fave. submitted a 15-pager last night, a 13-pager tomorrow, and another 10-pager and 5-pager by this weekend. 

wah lan eh, what kind of day is this.